album 2 i feel underestimated. ive been making my way up the ladder of life yet it feels like im still being shackled by something, a ball and chain hanging around my foot. it doesn't feel like i'm an adult yet. i didn't expect it to immediately feel like it of course but it doesn't make it better when others don't treat me as such. they still think im some dumb kid. i'm undervalued, not trusted, someone to be pushed around. to an extent, this sorta treatment rubbed off on me, and how i see myself. i do the bare minimum because that's what it's expect of me. i don't feel clever for the supposed, "gaming the system" anymore, i feel like i'm missing out on learning and growth. even when i try my best to do certain tasks and objectives, i feel like im always subpar doing them. taking these shortcuts only hurt my ability to learn in the long run. i don't to fake it till i make it, i want to be known for something that i can truly feel like i was able to do. this album is a self reflection on my habits, vices, and relationships from the past 3 years. i want to grow as a person but first i have to look inner wards to clean up a bit. i want to fully be able to get rid of the parts of my identity that i hate and are holding me back from being the best version of myself. it will be hard to do as i will have to cut so much stuff from my life, but it will be a slow but steady process. i will have to come to terms with certain things about myself and i'm okay with that. i have to decide